Pain
Anguish
Rushing through my soul,
Hurt
Emotions
Pushing me into a hole.
Accusations
Doubts
Raising my fears,
Worry
Anxiety
Undoing all these years.
Struggle
Exhaustion
From pushing it aside,
Fixing
Undoing
The bonds from which I'm tied.
Hoping
Praying
For a miracle to come,
Confused
Crying
What happened to all the fun?
Sufferance
Patience
Always through it all,
Questions
Penance
During this waging war.
Conflict
Overcome
Resilient do I remain,
Strengthened
Wiser
Even though the pain.
Guidance
Acceptance
Maybe it's the end,
Forgiveness
Comfort
To you I shall lend.
Finding
Always
The same given to me,
Grace
Mercy
Maybe one day you will see.
Happiness
Laughter
Of good times we shared,
Remembrances
Memories
You'll realise how much I cared.
Blindness
Deafness
A world of mixed up thoughts,
Persevere
Hold on
Until that day is caught!
Peace
Fulfillment
Of good times together,
Remembered
Always
In my heart forever.
~ Quentin Jessen © 24 July 2010
Friday, 13 May 2016
Friday, 15 April 2016
Paint a New Song
Silence fills my mind
Deep within these walls
Of expectations, confusion,
Which way now?
A contest of freedom calls.
Conspicuous thoughts
Surge in my consciousness
Calling, shouting, then
Screaming at me
Of all my restlessness.
I need some peace
Oh if only to dream
Of unicorns, fairies,
And carefree trees
Wishful thinking it would seem.
This jewel I possess
In my heart deep inside
Protects and shelters,
Makes me stronger
No vengeance shall I abide.
I'll paint a new song
In my life and in my need
To inspire, redeem,
Lifting me up high
My hope will succeed!
~ Quentin Jessen © 17 July 2010
Deep within these walls
Of expectations, confusion,
Which way now?
A contest of freedom calls.
Conspicuous thoughts
Surge in my consciousness
Calling, shouting, then
Screaming at me
Of all my restlessness.
I need some peace
Oh if only to dream
Of unicorns, fairies,
And carefree trees
Wishful thinking it would seem.
This jewel I possess
In my heart deep inside
Protects and shelters,
Makes me stronger
No vengeance shall I abide.
I'll paint a new song
In my life and in my need
To inspire, redeem,
Lifting me up high
My hope will succeed!
~ Quentin Jessen © 17 July 2010
Friday, 18 March 2016
Alone
How can you say
You want us to part?
When you know what we want
Deep down in your heart?
My heart it hurts
I'm feeling empty, broken -
My feelings crushed
Of all the things been spoken.
We had a fairy tale life
But you see a different side,
It still remains if you'd just see
See through the hurt and the pride.
My love I will love you
Always, even while struggling to mend,
When pushing me away
My feelings won't come to an end.
I thought you were the one
Saying you'll always be at my side,
But now I am being blamed
And have to take it in my stride.
We are two, involved in this
Struggling with this problem thrown
In our direction
And I am not in this alone.
I cannot be strong forever
Just as you always have seen,
My strength withers and dies
With every passing day that has been.
My tears have counted hundreds
Of days, hours, minutes of pain
Fears and anxieties arise
As I struggle to remain sane.
I wish you would see
How my heart is shattered
In a thousand pieces or more
Hoping to you that it mattered.
Without you it will be
A long, lonesome time
Of all my thoughts and emotions
Haunting, trapping me like a vine.
No arguing nor fighting
It’s my stupid heart-felt tale,
Of how much I feel for you
And how my heart now feels pale.
Yet do you take this
Deep into your heart?
Or will it be another
Fight that will start?
Of that I cannot think
And my heart’s wish for you -
All the best of emotions
Success and happiness too.
Am I lost, losing my way?
Somehow will I find my way back
Afraid to drift further from you
My dedication to you will remain on track.
This time which we have left
Should be treasured, seeing it clearly -
Never taking all for granted
How I appreciate you dearly.
As we go our separate ways
Knowing I didn't want this,
Wishing you the best for your life
I continue mine searching for bliss.
Hoping things could be different
But a pathetic hope it has been,
You’ve made your mind up to let me go
And I am forced to let go of our dream.
My heart, so un-mended
Can only stay as such,
Not wanting for anyone else
I never asked for much.
Except to keep our dream alive
Working through all on our way,
Our love supposed to be so strong
Hoping we would never stray.
Please remember how I feel
And know in your life that I tried,
All my best to help uplift you so
Never intending you to have cried.
Life has not been easy to me
Now to be dealt with another blow,
You say it’s all complicated
But good that we take it slow.
I have agreed, yes it's true
Though not easy to endure at all,
I respect you but hope you return
When you hear my heart's call.
Some people and circumstances
Have interfered in our bond,
Wish we could overcome and make it through
And happily come out strong.
My heart is struggling
So hard to come to terms,
But I cannot seem to let go
For the love in my heart that burns.
Fate has brought us together
Remember all we've been through -
Bad times are past, good times remain
From lessons learnt, we must stay true.
I love you, more than I have loved
Yet I wished you could be,
By my side through life's successes
And I could be with yours to see.
~ Quentin Jessen © 23 April 2010
You want us to part?
When you know what we want
Deep down in your heart?
My heart it hurts
I'm feeling empty, broken -
My feelings crushed
Of all the things been spoken.
We had a fairy tale life
But you see a different side,
It still remains if you'd just see
See through the hurt and the pride.
My love I will love you
Always, even while struggling to mend,
When pushing me away
My feelings won't come to an end.
I thought you were the one
Saying you'll always be at my side,
But now I am being blamed
And have to take it in my stride.
We are two, involved in this
Struggling with this problem thrown
In our direction
And I am not in this alone.
I cannot be strong forever
Just as you always have seen,
My strength withers and dies
With every passing day that has been.
My tears have counted hundreds
Of days, hours, minutes of pain
Fears and anxieties arise
As I struggle to remain sane.
I wish you would see
How my heart is shattered
In a thousand pieces or more
Hoping to you that it mattered.
Without you it will be
A long, lonesome time
Of all my thoughts and emotions
Haunting, trapping me like a vine.
No arguing nor fighting
It’s my stupid heart-felt tale,
Of how much I feel for you
And how my heart now feels pale.
Yet do you take this
Deep into your heart?
Or will it be another
Fight that will start?
Of that I cannot think
And my heart’s wish for you -
All the best of emotions
Success and happiness too.
Am I lost, losing my way?
Somehow will I find my way back
Afraid to drift further from you
My dedication to you will remain on track.
This time which we have left
Should be treasured, seeing it clearly -
Never taking all for granted
How I appreciate you dearly.
As we go our separate ways
Knowing I didn't want this,
Wishing you the best for your life
I continue mine searching for bliss.
Hoping things could be different
But a pathetic hope it has been,
You’ve made your mind up to let me go
And I am forced to let go of our dream.
My heart, so un-mended
Can only stay as such,
Not wanting for anyone else
I never asked for much.
Except to keep our dream alive
Working through all on our way,
Our love supposed to be so strong
Hoping we would never stray.
Please remember how I feel
And know in your life that I tried,
All my best to help uplift you so
Never intending you to have cried.
Life has not been easy to me
Now to be dealt with another blow,
You say it’s all complicated
But good that we take it slow.
I have agreed, yes it's true
Though not easy to endure at all,
I respect you but hope you return
When you hear my heart's call.
Some people and circumstances
Have interfered in our bond,
Wish we could overcome and make it through
And happily come out strong.
My heart is struggling
So hard to come to terms,
But I cannot seem to let go
For the love in my heart that burns.
Fate has brought us together
Remember all we've been through -
Bad times are past, good times remain
From lessons learnt, we must stay true.
I love you, more than I have loved
Yet I wished you could be,
By my side through life's successes
And I could be with yours to see.
~ Quentin Jessen © 23 April 2010
Friday, 12 February 2016
One Day You Will See
You sit there
In all your conceit,
Stubborn
Selfish ways
Blind to the
Consequences
And effects you cause.
Breaking down that
Image I once had
Of you,
Burned to ashes
Where to has it gone?
Dissipated
From how I once saw you.
Hoping you’d see
That you understand
Every time
It hurts deep inside
Bleeding from my soul
Wounds
Cutting deep into me.
And so I pray
One day you will see,
The things
You're doing to me
Not just me but others too,
Innocent
You make yourself to be.
Unsure this is true
Would you like for me,
To vanish?
Running away
From these complications
Forgetting
That you are the cause!
Survive this I will,
But remember this too
Karma returns
You'll answer for all
Decisions and actions
Wishing
You learn this soon.
~ Quentin Jessen © 26 September 2009
In all your conceit,
Stubborn
Selfish ways
Blind to the
Consequences
And effects you cause.
Breaking down that
Image I once had
Of you,
Burned to ashes
Where to has it gone?
Dissipated
From how I once saw you.
Hoping you’d see
That you understand
Every time
It hurts deep inside
Bleeding from my soul
Wounds
Cutting deep into me.
And so I pray
One day you will see,
The things
You're doing to me
Not just me but others too,
Innocent
You make yourself to be.
Unsure this is true
Would you like for me,
To vanish?
Running away
From these complications
Forgetting
That you are the cause!
Survive this I will,
But remember this too
Karma returns
You'll answer for all
Decisions and actions
Wishing
You learn this soon.
~ Quentin Jessen © 26 September 2009
Friday, 15 January 2016
Familiar Feelings
There we go again,
Those familiar feelings
Welling up inside of me
Rising quickly to the surface
Pushing, shoving
Almost manifesting
Showing itself
In many ways
In tears, pain,
Depression -
Crying
At the thought
Of yet another
Hurtful memory,
Sadness begins
Slowly eating away
Trying to reign over me
Beginning to break down
All hope,
Dreams and
Beautiful pictures
Of a life carefree
Solitude -
A bad idea!
Causing issues to
Yell at me!
Paranoia
To crush my views on
People, and
Other aspects
Of life, love and other
Important things
I will succeed!
Why let this hurdle
Influence my life?
I shall not allow
Anything,
Any person - friend or foe
Get in the way
Of my happiness
Pushing back
At the ominous thoughts,
Feelings,
And fears
I refuse to be victim
Of this darkness,
This stumbling block
Placed before me
Stopping - or trying to
Break my spirit,
Crush my dreams,
Letting me fall
Into despair -
No one around
Save a few precious souls
There for me
All here for each other
Supporting, assisting -
A blessed few
Whom grateful for...
Wishing the same fortune
A hundred times
More blessing bestowed!
Upon their lives
As I turn away from some
Remembering others
Saying thank you for being you
For supporting me
Making me the victor -
The conqueror
Of every one of my
Problems
Despair,
And depression
Goes out the window
I am a survivor,
And glad to know
I am not alone -
Glad you are by my side
Joy and happiness I've found!
~ Quentin Jessen © 25 July 2009
Those familiar feelings
Welling up inside of me
Rising quickly to the surface
Pushing, shoving
Almost manifesting
Showing itself
In many ways
In tears, pain,
Depression -
Crying
At the thought
Of yet another
Hurtful memory,
Sadness begins
Slowly eating away
Trying to reign over me
Beginning to break down
All hope,
Dreams and
Beautiful pictures
Of a life carefree
Solitude -
A bad idea!
Causing issues to
Yell at me!
Paranoia
To crush my views on
People, and
Other aspects
Of life, love and other
Important things
I will succeed!
Why let this hurdle
Influence my life?
I shall not allow
Anything,
Any person - friend or foe
Get in the way
Of my happiness
Pushing back
At the ominous thoughts,
Feelings,
And fears
I refuse to be victim
Of this darkness,
This stumbling block
Placed before me
Stopping - or trying to
Break my spirit,
Crush my dreams,
Letting me fall
Into despair -
No one around
Save a few precious souls
There for me
All here for each other
Supporting, assisting -
A blessed few
Whom grateful for...
Wishing the same fortune
A hundred times
More blessing bestowed!
Upon their lives
As I turn away from some
Remembering others
Saying thank you for being you
For supporting me
Making me the victor -
The conqueror
Of every one of my
Problems
Despair,
And depression
Goes out the window
I am a survivor,
And glad to know
I am not alone -
Glad you are by my side
Joy and happiness I've found!
~ Quentin Jessen © 25 July 2009
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