One Day You Will See

You sit there
In all your conceit,
Stubborn
Selfish ways
Blind to the
Consequences
And effects you cause.

Breaking down that
Image I once had
Of you,
Burned to ashes
Where to has it gone?
Dissipated
From how I once saw you.

Hoping you’d see
That you understand
Every time
It hurts deep inside
Bleeding from my soul
Wounds
Cutting deep into me.

And so I pray
One day you will see,
The things
You're doing to me
Not just me but others too,
Innocent
You make yourself to be.

Unsure this is true
Would you like for me,
To vanish?
Running away
From these complications
Forgetting
That you are the cause!

Survive this I will,
But remember this too
Karma returns
You'll answer for all
Decisions and actions
Wishing
You learn this soon.

~ Quentin Jessen © 26 September 2009

Familiar Feelings

There we go again,
Those familiar feelings
Welling up inside of me
Rising quickly to the surface
Pushing, shoving
Almost manifesting
Showing itself
In many ways

In tears, pain,
Depression -
Crying
At the thought
Of yet another
Hurtful memory,
Sadness begins
Slowly eating away

Trying to reign over me
Beginning to break down
All hope,
Dreams and
Beautiful pictures
Of a life carefree
Solitude -
A bad idea!

Causing issues to
Yell at me!
Paranoia
To crush my views on
People, and
Other aspects
Of life, love and other
Important things

I will succeed!
Why let this hurdle
Influence my life?
I shall not allow
Anything,
Any person - friend or foe
Get in the way
Of my happiness

Pushing back
At the ominous thoughts,
Feelings,
And fears
I refuse to be victim
Of this darkness,
This stumbling block
Placed before me

Stopping - or trying to
Break my spirit,
Crush my dreams,
Letting me fall
Into despair -
No one around
Save a few precious souls
There for me

All here for each other
Supporting, assisting -
A blessed few
Whom grateful for...
Wishing the same fortune
A hundred times
More blessing bestowed!
Upon their lives

As I turn away from some
Remembering others
Saying thank you for being you
For supporting me
Making me the victor -
The conqueror
Of every one of my
Problems

Despair,
And depression
Goes out the window
I am a survivor,
And glad to know
I am not alone -
Glad you are by my side
Joy and happiness I've found!

~ Quentin Jessen © 25 July 2009

Inspired by a Friend

For a second, 
I wonder
Upon endless thoughts
Dreams
Memories
Even the present.

Seemingly you reside
Somewhere within
Realising -
Not somewhere, but everywhere!
Everywhere 
Amongst my thoughts.

Always near to heart
You are there -
At all times, never leaving
Gratitude I feel, 
Appreciative
Honoured to know you!

To have you part of my life
A missing puzzle piece
Out of a bigger plan
Our lives all net together
As an intricate weave
A colourful masterpiece.

Woven in the loom of life
Each of us unique 
In our own way
Special and important, 
You are all that -
And much more to me.

Knowing I can 
Count on you
And you on me
Is bliss in my mind, 
Peace in my heart
And joy to my soul.

~ Quentin Jessen © 25 February 2009

River

Running, flowing -

Rushing like a stream...

Like a river

Swimming down the land,

Through the fields,

And down the valleys

So too, do I

Feel -

The same.

Water rushes, gushes -

Up and over rocks,

Stones & boulders...

Making its way to a

Far away destination,

As do I seem to be

Nearly there -

Or not?

It still seems far.

Winds, turns and

Around the bends it goes,

Turning this way & that...

Life does the same -

And never ceases to calm

But I shouldn't despair

For surely,

Peace

Will Come.

Waterfall, like a torrent

Falls, falls and tumbles -

As a skydiver

Gliding through the air...

Freely, carefree do I

Seem to be falling

Sailing,

Swimming

Into the hands of love.

And out of the foam,

The froth, waves of turbulence

Of a changed life & new love

The river of life,

Of a new - beginning...

Wash calmly down the river

Away into the

Sunrise,

The start of a new Dawn.

~ Quentin Jessen © 24 April 2006

A Silence of Nothingness

A silence, and a hush falls
Could it be that,
In-between these concrete walls
I'm hopelessly trapped.

Something holds us prisoner -
Loneliness, a nothingness
Inside our minds does it keep us
In a dark cold cell, comfortless.

How great the sky
How huge the clouds
How small do I feel
Among these crowds ...

Of people, and man-made structures
Unnoticed, unappreciated -
Small, insignificant and pushed aside
Almost all hope obliterated.

No time, no time!
An effort too much to ask,
Tears for help, for peace within
For friendship, attention and love at last.

Our spirits seem crushed, trampled upon
Our determination failing ...
Would this time be short, or too long?
Will this sadness end .. ?

~ Quentin Jessen © 2002